Monday, November 10, 2014

The Nursery is DONE!


The Caboose turned one month old on Friday and I celebrated by fiiiinally finishing her room (well, I'm still messing with art but it's close enough)! Just in time too, since she started sleeping in there this week.

I did the best I could with taking pictures...I've said this before but this room is DARK! Some of these exposures were 3+ seconds long and only possible with a tripod. When you're actually in there, though, the dark blue paint helps it feel cozy and the white paneling bounces a lot of light around to keep it from feeling cave-like. It's a good balance.

 Just a reminder of what it looked like before:


And now:



I had something different above her crib for ages but it never clicked. This zebra print from Ikea is a much better fit since there isn't a lot of tiny detail to get lost behind the chandelier.



The capiz chandelier makes a wonderful little tinkling sound when the fan is on and is my absolute favorite thing in the room.


It took me a weirdly long time to find a garbage can for her room. This one was on clearance (my love language) at Target. The wave painting (by my mother-in-law!) is temporary-ish. Whenever I get around to doing my own bedroom I want it in there but, for now, I can enjoy it above the changing table. Eventually I'd like to put something more textural up there- a banner? A quilt? Or maybe we can put her own drawings up there when she gets a bit older.



I've already talked about the dresser but...it's fantastic. It's probably a little too tall for some people to use as a changing table but it's just the right height for me. For a while the baby was sleeping in our room and I was changing her on our floor. Moving to her room and changing her bum on the changing pad is about a million times easier on my back and still-sore post-partum bod.



This is my late night nursing spot. I got the rocking chair on Craigslist for cheap. The lamp is one we've had for ages and has a dimmer switch, which is invaluable. I DIY'd my boppy cover and the pouf (which is looking a little sad these days. It needs a bit more stuffing and a general fluffing now that Baby 2 has been leaping onto it every time he comes in the room). The basket on the right is another Target clearance find and holds the few baby toys I have left over from when my boys were tiny.


OH that wall. I went through 18 different configurations for making a gallery wall with those pictures and finally got fed up and leaned them against the wall to come back to later. As it turned out, I way preferred the look of them leaning and overlapping. So I picked up a picture ledge from Ikea stuck them up there. I still mess with it every time I go in there and I just ordered a different print to replace the one on the far left, but it's coming together.


The other wall houses the closet and this mirror I bought from PB Kids when Stinky was a baby. Caboose's sweet little lamb towel hangs on the hook.

I still dream of the day when this carpet will go away but we're looking at doing the kitchen (yay!) in the next 5 or 6 months, so flooring can wait.


My boys are a little jealous that the baby has a "better" room than they do. To be fair, she keeps her room MUCH cleaner but I've started pulling together some inspiration...the boys' room is next!
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Thursday, November 6, 2014

Ways in Which I am a Total Crazy Person Lately

Having a baby makes you a leeetle bit crazy. Hormones plus lack of sleep plus that insanely addictive newborn smell- it's a potent combo.



We're done having kids but as I sat in the hospital I was overwhelmed with baby hunger. WHILE I HELD MY NEW BABY. I remember getting that feeling with Baby 2 as well. I spent the first couple months nursing my tiny new child while simultaneously telling Aaron WE NEED TO HAVE ANOTHER ONE RIGHT NOW. Mercifully, my sanity returned before my fertility did and there's a 4 1/2 year gap between Baby 2 and the Caboose. The wave seems to be passing even more quickly this time around as I remember what it's like to not sleep ever.



The grandparents were all over a few weeks ago and played pass the baby for a couple hours. I was always in the same room but when I finally got her back to feed her I realized, Holy crap, I MISSED you! Apparently it's possible to miss my baby even when we haven't actually been apart.


The other night Aaron offered to give the baby her supplementary bottle after I nursed her.

Me: Oh! That means I can go to bed right now and get two full hours of sleep in before she needs to be fed again!
Aaron: ....two full hours?
Me: Sadly, that's me dreaming big.


On the plus side, I FINALLY finished her nursery! Pictures forthcoming. Because I know you are dying of anticipation.
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Thursday, October 23, 2014

Loving | Leather Skirts

I've seen several people over the past couple weeks rocking leather skirts and now I've got a serious case of the gimmes. I'm super tempted to buy one buuut I'm not exactly back in fighting shape just yet so I'm dragging my feet until I have a waist again. Here are a few I've got my eye on-



1. ASOS
2. The Limited
3. H&M

The ASOS one is my fav but you can't beat H&M's price!

Anyone else itching to get their hands on a leather skirt for fall?

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Tuesday, October 14, 2014

The Caboose's Birth Story

Warning: this post comes with some pictures of blood and guts. Specifically, pictures of MY blood and guts. They're not super graphic but I'm still giving fair warning.

Stinky's Birth Story | Baby 2's Birth Story

After Baby 2 was born my OB moved away. I transferred to a new doctor who I ended up LOVING. She was open, supportive and unhurried and her office was full of people who remembered me by name.

From the get-go my new OB was totally open to having me attempt a VBA2C but I never felt very good about the idea. My previous attempted VBAC was terrifying and, ultimately, I made the decision to schedule a repeat c-section. My doc was, as always, supportive of my choice and scheduled my October 14th c-section back in April. The baby ended up settling into a frank breech position around 20 weeks and would NOT be moved so it was probably a good thing that I never set my heart on a vaginal delivery.

36 weeks

I never felt a single contraction with Stinky and only had a handful with Baby 2 before my water broke. This time around I had them constantly. I felt like I was in early labor for a full month before she was born. This had the unfortunate consequence of making feel like a total crazy person. I woke up many nights at around 1am with timeable, uncomfortable contractions that would last for an hour or two and then peter out. I kept thinking maybe I'd go early but then my appointments showed no progress.

On Monday, October 6 I felt sort of icky and off all day. I was a bit relieved when the nightly contractions got started earlier than usual. They kicked in around 6:30pm and I thought to myself, "Oh good, let's get this over with so I can get some decent sleep tonight!" Except instead of dying out like usual, they kept going. By 9:30 they had become quite uncomfortable and seemed to be closer together. Also, the baby wasn't her normal wiggly self. I texted my mom, "Hey, it's probably nothing but I'm having a lot of contractions and the baby isn't moving much. If they don't stop I may want to go in and have her monitored." At 10pm I called my doctor. She sounded half asleep and told me to go in. "I can't check you over the phone. They'll call me if you need me!" I decided to give it another half hour and see what happened. I put an ice pack on my belly to try and get the baby moving.

At 10:30 I admitted defeat and texted my mom to come over to stay with the boys. I was worried about the placenta giving up like Baby 2's had and I really wanted to get a monitor on the baby. Also, I was getting pretty uncomfortable and figured they might give me something to help ease the pain until the contractions stopped. I wasn't timing them but they seemed rather close together.

Aaron and I put our bags in the car just in case the baby didn't look good on the monitors but as we pulled out of the driveway I said, "Ugh this sucks. They're going to send us home at 2am and we are going to be total zombies tomorrow." Aaron nodded, "Yup."

They got me on the monitors in triage and asked me questions for 10 minutes, during which I had 4 contractions that were painful enough that I couldn't really talk. The nurse left to call my doctor and returned bearing an IV kit and an entourage. "Well," she held out a hand for my arm as another nurse gave Aaron a packet of scrubs, "looks like you'll be having a c-section in 30 minutes. It's baby time!"

Aaron asked why, worried that the baby was in distress. The nurse shrugged, "Well, she's in labor and in obvious pain."

Somehow, it hadn't actually occurred to me that the contractions might be the real thing. I was mostly just worried about how the baby was handling the squeezing (fine, apparently).

BRING IT.

I approve.

As Monday rolled over into Tuesday, October 7 I officially (according to my most conservative due date, anyway) hit 38 weeks as I signed consent forms.

Then I waddled my butt to the OR accompanied by nurses, the anesthesiologist and Aaron.


My boys were both emergency situations so it was a totally different experience this time around. No one was in a hurry. People cracked jokes. It was fairly relaxed, which helped me not to panic about the fact that I was minutes away from major surgery. They got me numbed, scrubbed and draped and then brought Aaron in.

So glad to see Aaron!

Both boys were out pretty quickly but with this baby they took their time. At one point I remember thinking, "Is she STILL not out yet? What are you people doing down there??" Aaron distracted me from all the pushing and pulling on the other side of the drape by talking about the numbers on the monitor by my head like he knew what they were. "Ah yes, I see you're at 110. That is exactly what I like to see, you're a model patient! Oh, and that 72 is fantastic..." The nurses giggled.

Then the anesthesiologist (who, small world, is my friend's brother) told Aaron to stand up and start taking pictures over the drape because our baby was coming.




I finally heard my baby cry!

They took her over to get cleaned off and I told Aaron to go be with her. I was suddenly exhausted. The anesthesiologist patted my arm and told me to take a little nap if I wanted.


Check out those wonky breech legs! They've since relaxed into a more normal position.

She was our gooiest baby yet so it took them a while to get her cleaned off. I really wanted to see her but I was struggling to keep my eyes open. I finally just relaxed and closed my eyes for a bit while they cleaned her up and looked her over. They called out to me that she weighed 7lbs 12oz.

After 10 minutes or so they brought her over.



I held her for a few minutes but then had to ask Aaron to take her. I was so tired I was worried my arms would give out and I'd drop her. He took her to the recovery room and I settled in for the patching-up process. I drifted in and out but never really fell asleep since the spinal makes it feel like you can't breathe very well (even though you can...it has something to do with numbed nerves not realizing that your chest is moving just fine). The anesthesiologist was fantastic...he stayed by my side and reassured me that the numbers on the screen really WERE perfect and I was doing great.

After what felt like FOREVER they wheeled me into recovery with Aaron and the baby. I snuggled her briefly but, again, was worried that my arms would give out and handed her back to Aaron.

Hanging out in recovery with me while daddy went to ask a question

We finally made it to a post-partum room just before 2am, which is when I had originally predicted they'd be sending us home. Ha.


Big brothers came the next day (Stinky had a bit of a cold so he wore Aaron's surgical mask from my c-section). They both wanted to see her umbilical cord stump.

My mom

Aaron's mom


Framing this one



This has been my easiest recovery yet. I stayed in the hospital for 4 days with both boys but I was dying to bust out of there after only 2 days this time. I was up and around no problem just a few hours after surgery and one of the nurses told me I was one of the easiest recovering c-section patients she'd ever seen. I think it's because my surgery was so much gentler this time and I also think the abdominal binder they strapped on me after they finished dressing my incision helped a TON. I remember walking hunched over, holding my mushy belly in place after my boys were born. This time the belly binder did that for me and gave me some core stability so I could get around more easily.

Nursing has been harder than with Baby 2 (she sometimes prefers screaming to latching and my supply is total crap) but we're figuring it out.

Mostly, this week has felt like a gift. I was scheduled for a c-section this morning at 6am so the past 7 days have been bonus snuggle time with my sweet girl!


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Tuesday, October 7, 2014

Baby 2's Birth Story

In preparation for the advent of our caboose I'm sharing my previous two birth stories. 

Stinky's Birth Story | Caboose's Birth Story
 


After Stinky's c-section I decided I really wanted to attempt a VBAC. I'm SO grateful that c-sections are an option since that likely saved Stinky but you do kind of miss out on that fresh-baby-on-the-chest experience. The OR is super cold to slow bacterial growth so they take babies over to a warmer immediately so they can clean them off, wrap them up and slap a hat on them.

My doctor was game for a VBAC attempt and we moved forward with that as our plan.

I hit 39 weeks more or less without incident. My fluid levels were good and the baby was head down. I was feeling optimistic, if a bit large. I had been pregnant SO MUCH LONGER and, hoo boy, I was feeling it.

I had an appointment that Monday and my blood pressure was starting to enter sketchy territory. I ended up at the hospital that afternoon to check fetal movement (he was fine. Just sleepy, apparently) and my doctor offered to let me stay and be induced. Neither Aaron nor I felt good about that so we declined and ended up scheduling an induction for Wednesday morning.

Over the next few hours I agonized over that decision. I had really wanted to go into labor on my own and I kept returning to this mental image of an unripe peach getting plucked from the tree. I felt raw and unready. I was really worried that induction would hurt my chances for a successful VBAC. I discussed it with Aaron and finally decided to cancel the induction and give myself one more week to go into labor on my own.



I called to cancel the induction on Tuesday morning- 2 days before my due date- but then my doctor called me back herself (which never happens. It's always a nurse) and we had a really good chat. She addressed all my concerns and told me hers and I hung up having decided to stick with the induction after all. It helped that I'd had some serious contractions for several hours that day plus a few other icky labor signs that don't need to be mentioned here and was feeling a lot more like maybe my body was ready after all.

On Tuesday afternoon I put Stinky down for a nap and laid down myself. Around 3 I woke up with a couple painful contractions. I sort of dozed for another half hour when I realized things were kind of...wet. I rolled out of bed and, sure enough- my water had broken!

I jumped in the shower real fast since I knew Aaron should be home from a meeting at any minute. I blow-dried my hair. I put on makeup. I called my dad to come stay with Stinky. I double checked my hospital bag. No Aaron. I finally called and asked, "Are you going to be home soon?" He replied, "No, I've got some stuff I need to do." So I replied, "Um, can you come home? My water broke." He headed home.

My dad came over to grab Stinky while Aaron and I headed off to the hospital. It had been just under an hour since my water broke and things were getting painful fast. They took one look at my face in triage and set me up in a bed immediately. They confirmed that my water had broken and hooked me up to a monitor. They also gave me the rather disappointing news that I wasn't even quite dilated to a one.

Last picture before I donned the beautiful gown


After over an hour of excruciating pain (seriously, no one told me that contractions feel like you're getting STABBED) I asked if I could have anything for pain relief. I still wasn't even at a 2 so they offered me Stadol. I took it.

As it turns out, Stadol is kind of a nightmare. It takes you to weeeird places without really making a huge difference in how much pain you're feeling. However, it DID allow me to relax over the next couple hours, which got me dilated to a 3. They mercifully gave me an epidural while I jabbered about how much I looooved the anesthesiologist and the nurse and the lamp and the gown and the linoleum and.... (Stadol. Not even once, kids).




I dozed for a couple hours and made it to a 5.

An alarm started beeping and my doctor came in. Since I was attempting a VBAC they had the baby on continuous monitoring and she stared hard at the screen for a minute before turning to me. "Kayla, you did really well and you gave it a great try, but now we need to get that baby OUT, ok?" I nodded.

They rushed me down the hall to the OR. Within minutes, we heard our baby cry.




Of all things, I wanted to know how much he weighed. With Stinky being premature and under 5 pounds I was SO curious what an almost 40-weeker would clock in at. I asked like 3 times before they finally weighed him- 8 pounds 4 oz!

With Stinky's c-section I felt NOTHING but, for some reason, with Baby 2 I could feel...stuff. Not pain, exactly, but after Baby 2 was out I could tell there were hands rooting around my insides. They called Aaron over to cut Baby 2's cord but he looked at my face and said, "Um, I think I better stay with her." After a few minutes of escalating panic over the hands in my guts, the anesthesiologist knocked me out.

I woke up in recovery to see Aaron snuggling our new baby. It was kind of novel to have the baby WITH us since Stinky had gone straight to the NICU. We toasted. We snuggled. We marveled at his red hair and full cheeks. We waited for feeling to return to my toes.


A few hours later Stinky showed up to meet his baby brother.


We found out later that the placenta hemorrhaged during labor, which meant Baby 2 was no longer getting anything from me and I had some internal bleeding. Again, I'm SO thankful for c-sections. It's possible that neither of my babies would be here and there's a chance I might not be here either. Emergency c-sections aren't exactly fun but I'll certainly take the operating room over the alternative.

Baby 2 was born 6 days before my birthday. We called him my little birthday present.


Baby 2 has always been a big-time mama's boy. The other day Aaron called his brother in Hawaii and Baby 2 asked to talk. "Hey Jeremy...did you know I like mom the best?" We joke that he's our Buster.

He still a little bit red-headed. He's also our loud, funny, rambunctious kid. He started talking early and pretty much never stopped. He's super affectionate and has been talking to and kissing my belly almost since the day we told the boys that we were having a baby. We're a little worried about how he'll handle not being the baby anymore but he's been promising his sister that he'll take the BEST care of her so hopefully her entry into our lives won't be too traumatic for him!

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